Processing and Praying

I was given news last night that rocked my world a little bit. The news has been slow coming and it wasn't totally shocking, but it was confirmed! This is friengtening to my entire family. I do not want to go into to much depth/detail. I am still processing my feelings and so are those closest to me. This news is not about me just so I don't get questions. I may be more specific as time goes on, but I don't know. Today, I was praying on the way to a job interview. Something else that is going on with me! smile! At times I feel like I ramble to God...like I am now. But today, I thanked God for resting in my heart. Resting, and I immediately took that back, because I don't feel like HE rests. I feel like HE is more like a toddler opening every door and closet, taking all the stuff out for it to be examined. Then, I go around my heart trying to pick up all the stuff that's been brought out. AHHHH... Picking up shouldn't be my objective though. Praying about all the clutter should be. Processing and praying. I've received a lot of information in the last two days. Heavy information that is going to change the way I think about life and the way I think about family. Sooooo, it's where I am. Life isn't simple, it just isn't ! If any one reads this and is under any kind of deception that it is...pray! Shannon


God allows us to experience the low points of life in order to teach us lessons that we could learn in no other way. C. S. Lewis